This week was crazy. Aren't they all? I guess it hit me that I have 4 more weeks. But after reflecting on it, I don't think too much will change when I return home. I still will be strictly obedient and I will still love the Lord.
I think what has impressed me the most about this beautiful mission is how I have been able to get to know the Savior. That through his atonement I can be changed completely! While sitting in church, I heard a phrase that I have heard before, "We are saved by Grace after all that we can do." THAT hit me so strongly. What is all that I can do? Because I really do NEED his grace. Doing all that I can isn't easy. In fact, I have come to the conclusion that the only way I can know that I am doing all that I can is if I am relying on the Savior, because HE is who will help me reach "ALL that I can". So really, I just need to trust in his loving care and guidance.
Now is that easy for me? No. Because I get discouraged, and his way doesn't always always seem like the most exciting... in fact, his way scares me. Because often times his way will cause rejections and hurt. But I KNOW that it is worth it. Because his way is the only way to be healed, changed, and happy down the road.
I can feel a glimpse of what down the road is really like every time I feel of the spirit :) I have learned that I must live for today, because there is no guarantee for tomorrow. Before the mission I was always thinking about the future, and I wasn't fully loving the here and now. But if we aren't taking advantage of the here and now, there really won't be any great down the roads for me. Because when I get down that road, I'll be wanting to be somewhere else.
With the Lord's help, I am LOVING this point of my mission. He is helping become all that I can, and enjoying this daily journey.
I love this mission. I wouldn't be where I am today without it.
Love Sister Kaylea Collings